How to Climb Through the Window
Angela Arnold
Don't be fooled: one foot on the sill, the other –
you reckon?
Wrong: first there's years to tear and flatten,
handy places where life's been stored, taped shut.
There's throwing an a and a q
and an x through the panes, in that order, the glass
of habit become floor sprinkles: look.
Next, you'll need to put your known-quantity feet in holes
that are painfully new.
And then you'll be digging
with bare fingers
through the fat mulch of things you'd so carefully
as they tend to say: forgotten.
While all this time the window prompts, invites,
forbids, doubts you.
It says: what about this tattery queue
of outstretched hands still to fill
with the (in truth) insubstantial gifts your la-la-la mind
seems to have begrudged. No more.
Soon (as a new world sea washes into your vacant
cranium; as piles of discarded indifferences
smoulder on a proliferation of fires)
you may at last lift the first foot. Slow-ly.
See: it's a brand new sky out there
ready to be inhaled, in its own time.
Angela Arnold is a writer, poet, artist, a creative gardener and an environmental campaigner. Her poems have appeared in print magazines, anthologies and online, both in the UK and elsewhere. First collection In Between: ‘inner landscapes’ and relationships (Stairwell Books,2023). She lives in North Wales. Twitter/X @AngelaArnold777